.Saturday, July 12, 2008 ' 4:38 PM Y
Remorse Anger
Ok this is what im feeling right now this second this moment of my life.
Anger.
Regret.
Stupidity of my own.
This is the reason why.You gotta read the entire thing,to find out,why im angry,regretting,and feeling stupid.
Enjoy.
Well today i woke up at 5am ._. yes
saturday.5am.pan mee.
LOL
Well i woke up that early cause my sister needs to fetch housemate to airport,so i need to go along as we eating pan mee after that lmao.
After pan mee it was already 7.45am i think o-o ..i had slight tummy issues and fell asleep on the couch after that
Woke back up at 10.20am cause sister woke me up -.-
She wanted to borrow my pens for her exam( LMAO SHE GOT EXAM .)
She left after that and i did the laundry,cleaned the room,and played some gunbound(i couldnt quit after all :( )
After gunbound it was already 2+
I was feeling hungry and bored already so i asked fish to go out with me for karaoke session and movies and lunch.
She said ok,and i sms my sis tell her that im going out.
She asked me wher m i going and why am i going,and said she wants me back at 4,so i was feeling kinda lazy go out if she wan me back at 4 to eat wif her.So i didnt have the mood to go out adi..samore its a saturday and parking is horrible-.- wan eat oso nid wait -.- eat oso expensive -.-
rather be at home eat noodles.
I sms and told fish,i cant go out adi,sis wan me home at 4.She was like " Anything la,come now ,i on my way down liao."
i was like,wtf la u..can u think of others beside yourself and your stupid FANTASY/DREAM with the so called fucking twins??
I felt stupid that i went out anyways -.-
I went to pick her up and had to make a huge round cause of her.And then nid go in for parking and make big big rounds and go up and down and paid 3bucks for NO parking.
She then say "i told youu" When she didnt even fucking tell me anything.Then we went outside to find parking eventou i was feeling like " can i just fetch u back and call it a day?" but obviously i cant say that rite -.- i feel that im too nice.Fuck.
We parked waaaaaay far,cause there was no parking and she kept asking me park in illegal spots,im still a P(Percubaan) and it isnt even my car,and i dun wan my sis get in trouble just cause of me,so i go park far far lor.
While walking she was like " See i told you there can park wan..they open it up on weekends for people to park"
The parking space she asked me to park at was for BUSES OR i can pay rm8 for that parking spot -.- which is so not worth it la.
I finaly cant stand her anymore.What best friend keep telling you off and making u feel worser and says " I TOLD YOU ".A true friend is one who makes me feel better not worser.Fish,you officially suck and im never going out with you again. =) Once bitten,Twice shy.
Anyways i got home at 4.10pm,im now home its 4.48pm
Sister isnt even home yet,but she knows.
Ugh,i wish i have someone who i can talk to and someone who isnt a BITCH.
I need a best friend.even tou im now in college,i dont think i can get one easily..
It makes it harder cause,I,ME,Sheena,AM/Is The best friend.I'm the one who dont say "OMG thats so ugly on you" or "I TOLD YOU that you cant rite?" or "Why you like stupid things like that wan?"
I'm the one,who smiles and says "Its nice on you,but you think you really need it?is it really worth it?" or " If now cannot,try again later lor.. You'll get a hang of it eventually" or " Its cute,but now ..it doesnt suit our age,Not anymore*grins*"
haiz..why cant there be anyone like me T_T
